Picking Up the Pace: Why each day is a new day in the Twin Flame Journey

Nothing is the same today as it existed yesterday. 

With each passing day, more and more "illuminations" come to the surface. Energy shifts are happening very fast, and today I received a message about how quickly things will manifest when you begin to understand the process of manifestation, fully. With last week's energy surge and this week's astrological aspects, we are in for an exciting time in the Twin Flame journey! 

Your thoughts are the keys to manifestation.

Coming off of last week's Gemini new moon and the crazy a$$ energy surge, I was feeling pretty darn great and optimistic about reunion. Saturday rolled around and I got a text from my TF--the first time that he contacted me in about 7 weeks. I had been sending a text here and there (maybe once a week), and he'd respond pretty quickly. But only 1 text or so. That's it. Nothing fancy. Nothing too deep. 

It was strange because I usually don't contact him early in the morning, especially on weekends, but I reached for my phone around 9 a.m. just to say "Hi." I had this urge to just send him a quick "hope you have a great weekend" message. When I picked up my phone, I saw he texted me about 20 minutes earlier. I almost died. 

While the texting thread wasn't ideal in nature (he was hot for a booty call--yeah, in the morning, who knew?!), I didn't let it trigger me. I didn't stop my life just to hook up with him, even though DUH I wanted to see him! haha... But I was proud of myself for holding back any negative emotions towards him for wanting to see me because he was having a hard time resisting our connection. When it comes down to it, that's really what this text message thread was all about: it's getting harder and harder to push me out of his mind. This, I know.

Yet, after he texted and I said he could stop by if he wanted to (he has yet to be inside my new apartment, so I was a little nervous about this of course), I started some negative self-talk. I thought: "There's no way he'll show up." And...he didn't. I texted him back around 5 and said I hoped he got home safely, and a silly pic of me in a snapchat filter. Didn't hear from him. The next morning, another sweet text from him first thing in the morning. But...that was it.

Was I disappointed that this was the only contact I had? Sure! I mean...I'm better than a freaking booty call, dammit! He knows that! Yet, this is my ego getting frustrated, here. And I also knew that seeing him while he was intoxicated was not the most ideal for our current circumstances. The universe was telling me: "Yes, he's still being drawn to you. No, this isn't the time for reunion." The overall message, however, was that I knew he was going to contact me. I just knew it! I allowed myself to be still in my knowing...and it happened. It happened! 

In this energy shift, our thoughts will truly become tremendously important. What you believe will manifest. Believe in the love that you share, then, between you and your twin. Believe in the connection, its strength, and its significance. Believe in the energy shifts that are occurring and know that you are not alone in this current dynamic. Surely, he is coming. Our Divine Masculine is coming. Believe it. And it will happen. 

Don't let triggers get you down.

Beyond the text on Sat/Sun, I had some unsettling news about him having a date Sunday night. Rumor mill type of news, that is. I'm not sure if he did have a date or if he was meeting up with friends, but I recall how I felt when the message sank-in. I felt...hot. Like, actually temperature hot. It was angry energy. It was frustrated, pissed off energy. It was defeatist energy. I let myself marinade in it for a good 10 minutes or so. And then...I decided that I had to let it go. 

Recently, I had another (amazing) reading by Will Weston (www.willweston1111.com) and he gave me an update on my divine masculine. On his side, he's definitely changing. He's shifting his energy towards our union, but most importantly, towards his own self-care. Me, however...well, while I'm balanced and have done a TON of healing, I'm still having a difficult time keeping the faith. I was guided to make sure I was appreciative of the moment, that I kept at my work schedule with increased gusto, and that I stay in a patient, positive place mentally and spiritually. Also, I was guided to help myself let go of past life karma whereas I look to control others' behavior for the sake of it hurting me and hurting themselves. This is particularly true when I interact with my twin, as I know that his drinking is a problem for him--it's part of his ego that I know he desperately wants to eradicate from his current life, from his future persona. 

When I heard about this "date," I was devastated for a mere moment, but then I realized that I can't control him or the situation. And if I was hearing about it, then I was meant to hear about it! I was meant to be challenged with this knowledge. I was meant to forgive him in advance, if it means that there's something to forgive. This knowledge was supposed to empower me to keep my arms open wide and know that the circumstances he's in right now are essentially leading him to me. In our traditional, 3D human narratives, when your beloved sees someone else, you figure "oh my god, he doesn't love me anymore!" That's not necessarily the case. Sometimes a date or a one night stand is, in fact, exactly what is needed to find that the old patterns of behavior just aren't cutting it anymore. It's like sleeping on an air mattress all your life. Then one day, you get a real, cushy, amazingly comfortable bed. It feels wonderful. It's something that you look forward to lying down in every night. You have it for a couple months. Then you crash at a friend's house one night on his air mattress and you're like "oh, fuck this air mattress noise. How did I ever survive on this all my life?" Sometimes a bad date--or an okay date--is exactly what is needed to figure out that the bad, the okay, the mediocre is, in fact, bad, okay and mediocre. It's not the thing that you desire most. Because now you know what you desire most.

So hearing this news, while a disappointment, was something that I had to let go of control over. Or, rather, I needed to realize that I don't have control over him. He has to find his own way, himself. In the meantime, I have to hold up the lantern for him so that he may find his way home...to me.

Essentially, you may be confronted, at this time, with harder things to overcome. Or you may find yourself struggling to keep up the positive flow of energy. It is important at this time to remain balanced and grounded. The energies at play are going to be surging through all of us, the divine masculine collective in particular. Your job, as the divine feminine, is to "hold" the energy as it comes to you--to receive it, let it go, or take it in depending on its frequency. Send the positive energy into the Earth, so that we may continue to heal Gaia and the others around us. Transmute the negative energy into the positive and let it go. Return it to the meeting place of heaven and Earth, sky and sea. You are preparing to receive the divine masculine.
(^^^This paragraph was just channeled to me, btw.) 

Create affirmations. Remind yourself that union is happening. 

At this time, it's important to find ways to remind yourself that your divine masculine is coming. It's imperative, in fact. Your thought patterns put off an energetic vibration, and like attracts like. Remind yourself that your heart and soul knows its truest truth--that truth of love. Forgive your divine masculine for taking his time, for honestly, that's all he's really taking. Just time. 

As Janet from Awakened Warrioress talks about in her video update from 5/29/17, we are transcending the old understanding of Twin Flame dynamics, particularly the runner and chaser. There is no such thing as runner and chaser--only the Empress and the Emperor, the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine. Only when we have reached these heights of ascension and vibration can we declare ourselves ready to step into our roles so that we may come together in (3D) union. And ascension for you, the DF,  may differ from that of the DM. The Divine Masculine could simply be ascending by getting out of his old thought patterns and routine, by taking care of himself, and by following his heart. 

For me, my ascension process has included a HUGE shift of understanding relationship dynamics, working on my own understanding and aversion to patience (I hate being patient! haha!), letting go of material possessions, walking away from what others expect of me, and loving myself (and my twin) unconditionally. I've been tasked to work on divine forgiveness (which is to accept). In order to forgive, I must first let go of my past attachments.

The Divine Masculine has been tasked with divine giving-ness (which is to surrender). In order to surrender, he must let go of his past attachments.

(that message was also just channeled, btw)

Your union will manifest if you can continue to center yourself in your heart, stay grounded and accept the energy that comes to you. Each day is another step closer towards your physical union. Each day is another milestone all on its own. 

He is coming. I promise.